Darkness

I try my best to avoid confrontation. I am never good in it. Even if I know that I am right, anxiety and nervousness overpowers me. And it is never helpful. To avoid confrontation, I keep it all inside. Which is even worse, because aside from anxiety, I also felt depress.

Depression is a tricky thing. You try your hardest to avoid it, you build a wall around you to prevent it from creeping in and show that everything is fine. But one slip, one crack and all of these comes crumbling down.

I’ve lost my trust to people I love and care for. I feel unvalued, unnecessary and disregarded. I start questioning major decisions I made and I have plenty of what-ifs right now. I just want to go away from all these, perhaps death is an even better option.

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